Life, it seems, is constantly filled with a direction that needs to be taken, a route that must be traversed, a path that must be walked. Destiny.
Destiny – an entirely and, sadly, cliched concept. It has been repeatedly embedded into the cheesiest of films and storylines leading to the climax of a beautifully crafted entertainment medium. While with it comes attached the fear and realisation that there is, without a doubt, a pathway being constructed before a soul’s wandering feet, it is also, without debate, something that is very real. Some call it coincidence, some people call it choice, and it is also something which is aptly termed ‘fate’ – but regardless of the label there still remains that undeniable fear of the unknown.
I have come to believe very strongly, through many things I have been taught, read, seen and experienced – both very real and supernatural – that a certain road is carved out of that which could be considered a colossal stone of learning. There is personal belief that when a soul is born into the tangible world around you, the very solid fabric you feel beneath your sensitive fingertips, the events which are to unfold in your lifetime have been laid out strategically along transparent and very flexible strands of existence, the purposes of which are to teach an individual one or multiple important lessons.
These lessons, or experiences, in a person’s lifetime occur at times when they are most likely to benefit the soul the most. It may be a situation of great gain, or great loss; periods of cacophonic upheaval or long trials of stagnation but nevertheless they occur for a reason. As an added note to that point, and one that helps to digest it much more easily, is that no matter the experience, in time all will turn out well. Time is the main factor. ‘Time is of the essence‘ as they say… It is the passage of time that leads a soul along its pathway, through all these obstacles and over magnificent hurdles to an end where one can reap the benefits.
Perhaps I, personally, am a hopeless optimist but I have always believed and always will hold belief in the revelation that we are all on this Earth to learn – we learn as children into teenage years, to adulthood and old age. We are constantly learning in all aspects from literal education, employment to emotions of love and friendship.
However, despite the extensive introduction to this rather deep topic of writing and ramblings, accompanied by the dramatic undulations and fervour of ‘alternative’ music, these words have been written with my own personal fear of the direction, or lack thereof, that I am currently experiencing. For the last two years I have lived a considerably comfortable existence during my mid-university years as a student in relatively stable accommodation but as the next few months play out, I will see myself wandering down a path to which I possess no map. What creates and enhances the fear of this pathway is that I take each step with pride and zeal yet I am distinctly aware that I have been handed a blank piece of paper and a pencil with which I am required to sketch the contours of this pathway, mapping unknown hurdles, obstacles, locked gates and doors-ajar with no tangible or ethereal knowledge of where my feet are taking me. Perhaps that uncertainty is one, or one of many lessons with which I will gain a new trait or aspect of personality.
Regardless of the difficulty, clench your fits and march head first into the mist. It is the only way.
At times, exacerbated by tiredness, I feel myself and my thoughts stumbling down this pathway with no sense of direction – no ups, downs, lefts, rights, aboves and belows. Of course, the two directions of utmost importance are the ‘forward’ and ‘behind’ of that pathway – from where you have come and where you must go: what you have learnt in past experiences and taking them into these new occurrences. Of course, there is always the concept of the ‘present’ but time is as stagnant as a flowing river – it is never still, it never reverses. It flows on repeatedly, altering its own course through its many dynamic processes on the surrounding environment and inherently affecting those outwith its immediate contact – like the outward migration of ripples in a pool.
I return to my previous point about pathways set in motion from the moment we enter the prying grasps of the deliverers in a ward. A set of events along a timeline are plotted, and while I believe these to occur eventually, in time, they themselves are not fixed upon that line with unmoving foundation: quite the contrary. I understand the fear and reluctance of some when faced with the concept of fate, or destiny. Put simply, to them it is something that is uncontrollable.
But through life there are countless experiences in a soul’s life that very subtly remind us that we never have nor will we ever be in complete control. We can only change and alter the direction of existence, but no matter how much we may push and pull at those transparent strands, to bend it, twist it and fashion it into an aesthetically pleasing sculpture, the fact remains that what is for us will not pass by. Its form may differ, its timing premature or delayed, the magnitude of varying severity – but regardless of these aspects, the fact also remains that the experiences a soul is subjected to along its timeline are all for the ultimate purpose of learning, realisation, acceptance and growth.
The sooner that is realised, accepted and encouraged, the easier things will become and the more valuable the lesson and causality.







First of all and foremost, or rather second of all following that post below, I have to mention the one artist who has had an adverse effect on my life in the last 2 years.